Archive for the ‘Rambling’ Category

June 23, 2012

[4:27:09 PM] Digital Dream: you’re like a nice chocolate bar with a random hard almond in the middle of it ;;
[4:27:19 PM] Digital Dream: you seem nice
[4:27:26 PM] Digital Dream: then you hit the almond and it’s like ;A;!?
[4:27:51 PM] Eva: omg
[4:27:57 PM] Eva: that is the most amazing analogy i’ve ever heard


May 20, 2012

Been really busy for the entire month, but after my 3 finals tomorrow, I’m done!
Well kind of. QnQ N-not really HAHAHA. I still work on Tuesday. And then Wednesday is possibly my only day to record all of the lines (omg there’s a lot sobbb) that I owe. And then I work Thursday. Friday is either recording or last minute shopping day. Then on Saturday, I leave for Australia!

I missed a lot of stuff Q_____Q l-like my own birthday LOL. You know how I always post a picture of myself wearing my Birthday Girl shirt in the mirror on my birthday? :c I’m 18 days late, cryyyy. But I did take pictures that day although I haven’t picked out which one to post.. o A o When I have time, I will ! The tradition of mine will live on ^^

April 29, 2012


March 25, 2012

Seeing my high school friends today–although I love them–made me realize just how different I am from them. I can’t relate to them; they can’t relate to me. They don’t really know what kind of person I am and what kinds of things I like to do. They have no idea how much effort and time I put into things like recording, mixing, and video-editing, and don’t really care.

This was my first time hanging out with someone irl other than Chiisana [-clings to her-] for a really long time, though. ;w;

-pathetic and forever alone-

Back in high school, my friend and I joked about how when college starts, I’m going to be a home shut-in… We were so accurate. =w=

March 22, 2012

Kinda worn out. ;w; School from 10 AM til 2 PM, then work til 8 PM, come home to loads of online responsibilities…… No time to breathe. This really cannot be healthy at all. People always tell me to not overwork myself and I say I won’t, but then I’m back in this shaking state again.

But since I made a selfish request, I’m throwing myself under the bus.
Hwaiting D8<

Mm.. x_X I’m trying to teach myself how to EQ right now and I’m failing so terribly. I have so much respect now for those that can EQ well. They’re amazing! But there’s pressure on me.. to do a good job on this..

March 11, 2012

;________________________; I’m tearing up…

I previously mentioned that there was a paper that I stayed up all night writing, which I finished at 7 AM then consequently decided to skip school for the day, and slept from 8 AM til 5 PM.

First of all, I got an A on that paper. /o/

Second of all, it was for my Imagination and Play class, and in one part that was more personal than research, we were asked about the kind of play that we did when we were in middle childhood and why we liked those games. I mentioned that because I was an only child and was bullied at school, I didn’t have many companions and instead made friends out of stuffed animals.

My teacher wrote this:
“I am sooo very sorry to hear that. I suspect, given your academic talent, that you are going places in the future. That I hope will help make up, at least a little, for the misery of being bullied. I am also glad you had your stuffed animal friends to help.”

Q A Q -tearing up-

March 8, 2012

.. =w= I love today. #lesarcasm

One of those days where everything that could possibly go wrong…does go wrong. ._.

For starters, my youtube is now the new ugly layout.
I’m thinking of writing another letter to yt. ._.

Okay, so my Thursday class starts at 10:30 AM, so I usually wake up at 9 AM. Guess what time I woke up? 11 AM. ………. ._.

After much speeding, I got to the parking garage I usually park at–the one closest to my class–on Thursdays. To find out that part of it was reserved for the job fair today. Not a single parking space on any of the floors. ._. So I drove to another parking garage and finally got a space on the roof.

Got to class. My teacher did not accept the assignment due today because it’s due at 10:30. ….. ._. M-my poor grade.

So my class today is Music Technology and work for this class can only be done in this classroom during lab hours. Unlike others that left after class time was over [12:30 PM], I have no choice but to stay after class by myself and endure hunger pains until I’m done with the assignment. ._. Because I have class or work during all of the lab hours.
Oh and have I mentioned that I have very fast metabolism and can barely even go 2 hours without eating something? ;w; And eating + drinking isn’t allowed at all in the music tech lab…..

So I finished my assignment at 3:30 PM. Everybody had left by 2 so I was all alone. ;_; Although I guess that was a good thing because I ended up deciding to sing for one of the activities.

Went back to my car which was at the roof at the parking garage with no elevator. (_ _);; And there was a WONDERFUL surprise waiting for me!
A parking ticket. ._____.

I parked at the only place where there were still parking spaces left.. >_> and it happened to be a place where you needed a certain permit on Mon – Thur from 7 AM to 12 PM. Guess what time I got this ticket? 11:56 AM.
I have to pay $45 because of 4 minutes. ._.

Then I get to go home, right?! Nope. Went to work. I actually was so depressed, disappointed in myself, and out of it that I drove the wrong way ahaha. orz

Got to work and finally ate lunch at 4 PM. ._. I was really.. really hungry. And stressed. ;w; So when my coworkers came and saw me rush-eating in the cafeteria and were like, “Are you okay? Why does your smile look so unhappy?” .. ;w; I just burst. And I feel pathetic for crying in front of my coworkers LOL.

Plus I felt so much guilt for being a burden on my coworkers. D’: I’m supposed to work from 1 to 6 PM on Thursdays but because I can’t go to lab hours, I’ve been coming to work really late. ;A; When I got there, my boss was like, “My savior!” and I’m just like…. Q A Q what kind of savior am I when I couldn’t even be here to help sdaklfjal


Oh, but uh… LOL. So what we’re doing in music tech right now is learning to use garageband, specifically for looping.. xD;; So one activity was to record something then use looping, copying and pasting–the very basics.
=w= Everyone did beatboxing or whistling or something somewhat cool, and I didn’t know what to do soooooo… I did Haro Hawayu AHAHAHAHA. My teacher’s probably gonna be like, WTF THIS WEEBAOO D8


Garageband sucks for editing audio though :/ and I kinda rushed this haha. Also, I was trying to be quiet. x:

March 6, 2012

………….. ;_____________;

S-somebody that I’m a big fan of/really, really admire asked me to duet with him. I might just die on the spot. I’m really.. not worthy but this makes me incredibly happy.

I’m so excited and so worried and so ecstatic and so terrified of being tomato-pelted by fangirls for my mediocre singing and so … ahhhh this is the biggest honor ever. But I’m really quite happy to get this type of chance. c’:


I just wanted to come and say that. OTL No time for blogging; sooooo busy. D’:

March 3, 2012

.. what is sleep. ;_;

Ahhh lately, other than that company lunch yesterday and the 1 – 4 hours of sleep every night, I’ve been doing nothing but
1) Attending school
2) Working
3) Doing homework/studying
4) Mixing
5) Mixing
6) Doing homework
7) Webcamming while mixing or doing homework
8) Late fix-ups on the video [which btw sucks–my deepest apologies]
9) Mixing

25 hours of mixing spent total on a song that isn’t even serious…

I only accidentally got 5 hours of sleep last night because I finally finished fixing everything in the mix last night at 4:30 AM and I was rendering part of the video to patch a mistake [there were many mistakes ._.] and I was like, “OKAY I’M GOING TO NAP UNTIL 5 AM then come back and put together all the patches and render the final video!” and I ended up waking up at 10 AM and I was so mad at myself ;____;… Then I rendered the video and found out I made a mistake in the subtitles LOL FML.

ALSO THERE’S SOMETHING I’M REALLY MAD ABOUT and I’m really.. I can’t. Just. No. Please. I worked really hard and I even started tearing up last night because of all the inexplicable problems that suddenly appeared in the mix and it was frustrating and I really don’t appreciate this lack of appreciation and WHAT DO YOU EVEN EXPECT FROM ME. ;_; I’m actually really angry and those words make me incredibly sad. I mean, it was hurtful enough that I/we didn’t even get any support—not even a glance of care—during a critical time and I WAS EVEN ABOUT TO CRY, but ending it off with a really painful stab… This kind of insensitivity. Please no.

Anyway =w= welp, we encountered a LOT of issues but finally after much struggling and stress, the video is going up today. =w= Sony Vegas says 21 minutes left to render /o/ banzaii!

Anyway, here’s a teaser for the upcoming upload.

February 29, 2012

That’s how I want to be—able to adapt to different songs, languages, genres, styles, and emotions.